Satisfied

We sang this song on Sunday...who knew it was a remake of an old hymn? Not I. Struck by the chorus I came home and googled the lyrics:

All my life long, I had thirsted

For a drink from some cool spring,

That I hoped would quench the burning

Of the thirst I felt within.

Feeding on the filth around me,

Till my strength was almost gone,

Longed my soul for something better,

Only still to hunger on.

Poor I was, and sought for riches,

Something that would satisfy,

But the dust I gathered round me

Only mocked my soul's sad cry.

Well of water, ever springing,

Bread of life so rich and free,

Untold wealth that never faileth,

My Redeemer is to me.

Hallelujah! He has found me

The One my soul so long has craved!

Jesus satisfies all my longings

Through His blood I now am saved.

That is my desire: to truly say that He has satisfied all my longings. When I sing it, I can say in that moment that my desire is to be satisfied in Him. It's when I get caught up in the things around me, that I forget that He is all I desire. It's not a secret how much I desire a family. It's not made any easier by the fact that I see pregnant women EVERYWHERE! Not only that, but I've counted thirteen plus friends, five of whom are close friends, who are either pregnant now or have had babies in the last five months. I want it to be me....

So, daily I must remind myself that Jesus, not a husband or children, is the One my soul so long has craved. When I wake up in the morning and face the day, when I hear men tell their wives they love them, when I see pregnant moms rub their bellies, when I ponder all the decisions I must make alone about the future, and when I go to bed and wish I had someone with whom to process the days events; these are the moments I must choose to rejoice in the One who has found me and redeemed me and made me His own.

I'm so thankful He has found me, and adopted me....and daily forgives my wayward, ungrateful heart.