Just out of reach

I have this constant feeling currently of missing something, forgetting something, or just not getting the whole picture. You know...the feeling of having something on the tip of your tongue or on the edge of your consciousness and not being able to recall or it. That is how I feel. It's a constant sense of not being satiated or not having my thirst quenched. It is frustrating. It niggles at the back of my mind and heart from the time I get up in the morning to the time I fall asleep at night.

I first attributed it to the loss (temporary or not) of a friendship I enjoyed for so long. I feel like part of me is missing and daily there are conversations that remind of this person or events that make me want to call him and share them.

Though the absence of an active friendship may have triggered some of these feelings, the credit goes to the Lord for His creativity in drawing me to Him. I am convinced that this feeling of having something just out of reach is the "God-shaped vacuum" He has created within me. Those feelings of incompleteness are His constant reminder that this world is not my home. I stand before God made perfect by Christ's sacrifice. Nevertheless, for as long as I live in this world I am being conformed daily into His likeness. Feeling like I'm missing something draws me to Him and challenges me to both desire Him and to be satisfied in Him.

"why do you spend your money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me and eat what is good, And delight yourself in abundance. Incline your ear and come to Me. Listen, that you may live.... For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," declares the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts."
Isaiah 55:2-3a, 8-9.


"Seek the Lord and his strength; Seek His face continually. Remember His wonders which He has done, His marvels and the judgments uttered by His mouth."
Psalm 105:4-5